God’s Test

Insecurity can be best defined as a flawed character trait that can result from low-confidence and low self-esteem which are caused by many factors in our lifetime. False self-image of perfection is one of the major reasons of self-doubt. The feeling of being insecure affects so many people in many different ways, and I unfortunately, was one of them. In middle school, I didn’t even know what being insecure was like. I never even thought of comparing myself to any of my classmates or anyone. When I started high school, signs of insecurities were being revealed. Unconsciously, I was being influenced by the girls around me who endlessly compared themselves to models on social media ̶ which our society views as an example of a perfect body. Lack of confidence caused me to isolate myself from everything.

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Because of all this, my insecurity affected the way I viewed myself as a person and this feeling even caused me to endure random breakdowns, repeating, “I have an ugly body”. At this point of my life, I thought my insecurity is going to be the death of me. After seeing me in this emotional and dark state, my mom took me to a place where all teenage girls my age spoke about similar issues that I was suffering from. There were around ten girls sitting in a room sharing their insecurities and explaining how they have overcome them. One of the speakers named Yara spoke about her insecurity and said “love yourself and don’t care about what others think”. Another thing that she said that really caught my attention was “Do not waste your time trying to make everyone else love you for God loves you unconditionally”. That specific sentence turned my life around. It made me realize that God gives us many obstacles in life including insecurity, and to me, it was considered a test of self-endurance. Now, I look back and share a moment of pride, knowing that I have indeed passed the test.